Your time and work is valid.

The transition into motherhood shakes up a whole world, most importantly to know, I find, is, that with giving birth, on a neuronal level there are found totally new connections. You are turning into an altered state of yourself. Coupled with tears and exhaustion, griefing of time and space and the old version of you, holding your child in your arms, leaves you questioning what has value in your life. How do I want to be doing this and who is this person. Until then you might have been able to do this and that, but this is different now.

Motherhood had me loose all my savings and many relations. It did cost my nervous system and deep trauma work. The relationship we have had, turned into war zone, into deserted land. I carried myself to grave so many times. And always I was confronted with the societal image and my own conditioning of how unimportant the role of the mother is. There is nothing more challenging than being with another entirely dependent being, day and night, your own flesh and blood, showering you with love and all the invisible imprints of your family line.

Your role, your time and your work is valid. Also, the confusion this state brings and the confusion where heading to. Making decisions, choosing directions, whilst raising the next generation, whilst burning in societal disregard.

In a capitalistic and patriarchal system, you have no offering. Choosing differently and evolving into more meaning and empowerment for yourself and your family, is dangerous to a system which offers you ‚well-meant safety‘.

Your time, your thriving and work is valid.

For yourself, your children and the planet.

Photograph taken 8 weeks after birth of my daughter Maayan, by dear Larissa Wallner